I just in boxed this to a friend. But then I realized I need to vent and share my pain with all: Im just so sad...more and more I have days that I feel I would be more helpful in saving my child and any other child victims if I were dead. My story would then be more interesting to the media. I could then have it carried nation-wide. I could leave instruction to have my people pursue lawsuits (with the insurance $) and law changers too. For some reason everything only gets noticed/recognized once someone dies. And why not? I have already died inside. I cannot live knowing what he is doing to my baby UNLESS i can get him to safety. Seeing I have no money to do that....whats left?!
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Kimberlee Fabiani I know, you heard it so many times, like everyone says, and I have heard more than not, STAND STRONG, even at your weakest, when you feel there is nothing left, hang in there,,,,,,It may take a week, a month, a year of 5 yrs,,
Kim Woodside You have a dream. A dream to save your child and free all abused children. Jack Layton reminded us to never give up on dreams. If this social media is suppose to help in bringing change then you have already started the wheels in motion. If crowd funding can provide funding for a movie then its time to use that outlet for funding this cause. Dream bigger then life and never lose your faith. You have the strength to create change and growing support to help you when you need us most. Tomorrow is a brand new day and everything is possible.
Mary Jane Smith All on these Fb sites, are grieving. We have all suffered the 'loss' of what gave us a raison d'être to live. Now this focus is absent from our aching arms of love, and not being 'loved, accepted and approved' of where they are. WT we are to view our missing children as 'dead-to-us' and alive to CAS/CPS/CFSA. We are all staggering around in the stages of grief, one day here, another day there, but each day, a little less in one stage, and a little more in the next stage. We wonder if our tears will ever end. BUT, in order to move forward, we need to grieve our loss of the past.
Grieving is a process we move through, from denial, then anger, then bargaining, depression, and finally acceptance. These stages of grieving don't happen sequentially.
We stagger through the stages, denial that the event has happened to us, then slowly we move towards outrage and anger, still reaching back into denial, but now less and less. Then we spend our time on anger, up and down, in and out, slowly moving towards the bargaining stage -- if only I hadn't done that, if only I hadn't done the other thing, if only, if only, all the while still dipping into pits of anger; but slowly spiraling into a depression over the whole issue; coming out once in a while to deny, or get fighting mad again at some recalled offense, periodically 'what iffing' until we're fully depressed; finally we start heading towards 'acceptance' of the mistakes I made, the contributions I made towards the stalemate or crisis, It's at this point that we can start moving forward, into a future, finally able to put the issue behind and look forward.
We go through this process over every loss, whether that be a job, a friend, our children growing up, becoming an empty nester, moving from the home we loved to a new place, moving from the school we attended for lower grades to the new school, or the death of someone we love. The grieving cycle, under normal conditions, is thought to last about three years. If it the process goes many years over that, there's perhaps more going on than the grieving issue over a 'normal' loss.
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thanku for reminding me about Jack, and helping to re-fuel my flame I hope i have started something. If nothing, connecting with such amaizingly beautiful people from so many miles away has made it better
I know I cant give up! Especially when you detailed the stages of grief so well. How could I miss your point...that this occassional depression is part of the stages, completely normal, and it does lift. I had some idea about grief but didnt know all that. It certainly makes sense now, no doubt I will be easier on myself
All the words i needed to hear tonight. Thank u all so much. ~ bless